I will never leave you or forsake you. -Hebrews 13:5
Today is day 7 of a new devotional called “Hope for the Weary Mom” and just when I was starting to feel like the authors were speaking more to new mothers than to a seasoned mother of 5, today’s message jumped off the page and smacked me upside the head.
Why? Because some days, in the midst of the craziness and constant activity of our blended family, I feel lonely. I’m not talking about a fleeting desire for company, but an emptiness so complete that it feels like my soul is sliding down a dark tunnel.
Twice this morning I received this message. First from the devotional which went on to break that verse down to say “I will never, never leave you. I will never, never, never forsake you.” All those “never’s” filled me with hope!
Then, as I was reading through Psalm 68 I received smack number two in the form of some verses that lay out the ways in which we are never abandoned. Verse 5 says that God is father of the fatherless. He steps in where earthly fathers (and step-fathers) fail. Verse 6 says that God places lonely people in families. He placed me in my family. He placed you in yours. He knows how hard it is. He’s right here giving you the strength you need, whether you recognize it every moment or not.
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Here’s the truth of where I was this morning before I sat down for my quiet time. Ready to leave. Ready to give up, take my boys (my originals) and run away. I was sure that I was failing as a blendie-mom and wife. And then God reminded me in this not-so-subtle way that he placed this lonely girl in this family for a reason. Yes, it’s really hard. The members of our family have issues that sometimes form a fortress I can’t break through. But He can.
It’s not our job to break down every wall, or rebuild every bridge. Not on our own.
Do you ever hear a voice (mine sounds like my own negativity) that says, “Your husband doesn’t choose you”, “your step-kids can’t stand you”, “everything you do to help backfires and blows up in your face”, “there’s no point trying to mend these relationships”. Insert your own lies here. And then delete them. Stomp them. They are the lies of an enemy that wants nothing more than to divide your family and send you running for the hills.
Perhaps you will pray this prayer…
Lord, I cry out to you! Replace these lies with your truth. Replace these hurts with your joy. Give me the knowledge that you are always with me. You will never leave me or forsake me. You placed me here and you will give me the strength to mother this family today and every day. Amen.
You are not alone.